If I’m extra sarcastic with you it probably means I’m flirting with you or you really annoy me and I can’t handle your shit
Boy #1 - it’s been 3 months now that I’ve liked him. Everybody says I should stop wasting my time and that he doesn’t like me back. Everyone thinks I’m obsessed and the feelings are unrequited. But NOBODY, not even his closest friends, knows how he feels except me and him. Things are so so different when were together. People don’t understand; that’s fine with me. But he’s proven to me that he’s worth everything. He’s given me second chances like crazy. This week he finally decided we could spend time together again. After a friend of ours had liked me, he didn’t want to hurt him by being overly involved with me. We moved past that this week. I was gleaming with hope for our next date to see Eugene Onegin, until boy #2 came along and ruined everything..more than once.
Boy #2 - ive known him for about a week. It started at a party, he kept kissing me on the cheek. He had a girlfriend whom he’d cheated on in the past and she was there. I told him to stop, but I was largely focused on boy #1 and at a level of drunkenness that I didn’t really understand what he was doing and the severity of it. It only got worse from there. I wanted to befriend him despite what happened because he’s boy #1’s best friend. He mistook that as me wanting something more. He became so interested in me and I genuinely liked him as a person, but made it clear that I only cared for boy #1. He persisted until boy 1 decided he would not take me to the met anymore because it would make boy 2 jealous. After this, I told boy 2 to never speak to me. I mean he’d ruined something I’d just fixed. And he had a relationship with a GREAT girl (far superior to me) so why did he do this?he almost threatened his friendship with boy 1 which was blamed on me. Another fight with boy 1.
Lots of crying and pain. I want it to be over. I want everyone to stop hurting.